Journey Through Cancer with Pam Sears
Cancer story introduction
I am honored to share the cancer journey of my friend and fellow cancer thriver, Pam Sears. Pam and I met through The Conscious Community; a networking organization that promotes and supports like-minded businesses. I followed her journey and when I was diagnosed (again), Pam was there to offer support, massages, guidance, and holistic healing recommendations. Pam is a talented massage therapist (among other things) and you can learn more about Pam at her website HERE. Pam did cancer HER way and kicked cancer’s butt!
Here’s Pam’s story…
No one ever expects that call to come, especially not me, the hospice worker, who takes care of those who are terminally ill from cancer and other illnesses. I’m a healer, I help others, I bring comfort, and have for many years. My Hospice Life has taught me so very much; from the emotional aspect, to the physical, to the spiritual. “Pam, you have breast cancer”….What??? Me?? That can’t be possible, no way can it be happening to me. But it was. The overwhelming shock, the feeling of having the rug pulled out from under you and being electrocuted all at the same time. Little did I know at the time just how much my Hospice work had prepared me for my temporary journey with the big “C”.
Previous Mammograms did not show cancer, although the lump had been there. I was informed all was well, when in reality, the cancer was growing, albeit slowly. Lobular carcinoma can only be found with a biopsy and ultrasound until it gets to be too advanced. That’s what happened to me. The mass was too large. I would need a full mastectomy. In thinking back, my intuition was telling me it was something, but since I was told it was nothing, I put it all out of my mind and went on with my life. A second opinion and an ultra sound early on would have prevented a mastectomy; something I’m now a huge advocate on. Always listen to what your body is telling you and be your own advocate!Always listen to what your body is telling you and be your own advocate! Click To Tweet
So my temporary journey with cancer began and I had some decisions to make. I knew deep within my heart what path I was NOT going to take and that was traditional chemotherapy and radiation. As a hospice worker I have seen the after effects of both and it’s not something my soul wanted! Of course I did a great deal of praying for guidance. My spiritual background gave me a huge amount of faith that whatever I chose and was guided to do, would be for my highest good! My mastectomy surgery wasn’t planned for 6 weeks and I had already planned a trip to Hawaii on a Spiritual Retreat and I knew it would give me some important inner healing that would help me not only get through the surgery, but after as well. I was also, through synchronicity, introduced to a Japanese biochemist in my area who had his own cancer clinic at one time and helped a lot of stage 4 cancer patients go into complete remission. The fact that we were put together at exactly the right time, I know in my heart it was divinely inspired. This was just prior to going on my Hawaii retreat. His protocol involved some heavy duty items and I sat and listened intently to all he had to say. There was a part of me that feared his protocol due to the fact it was very expensive, yet this was my life we were talking about. My very being screamed out, Do it, this is what you have been guided to do! Here is the answer you have been praying for! Thank God I had my friend Martha with me for support. Thank God she said, “Pam, if this is what your heart is guiding you to, just do it and don’t worry about where the money is coming from. Trust it!” In my heart I so fully knew it was the right thing for me. The regimen included pancreatic enzymes, high doses of liquid vitamin C, coffee enemas as well as other immune building supplements. It also involved giving up animal protein and dairy, with the exception of real butter, and getting my body alkaline. I totally accepted this new way of eating and living. In fact my body responded so well and I actually began to feel 100% better. By the time I had my surgery weeks later, I have no doubt my fast healing was a direct result of taking care of myself in a healthy and natural way.
Special Message Revealed
I want to share a very special message that I received while in Hawaii. Many women had said to me, “how can you even go to Hawaii knowing you have cancer?” One even said, “if it was me I couldn’t wait to get that out of my body and wouldn’t be able to sleep until I knew it was gone.” I wanted to acknowledge it, and listen to my body; I know it may sound odd but I thanked the Cancer for waking me up to whatever it was that caused it to happen in the first place. For me I KNEW I hadn’t been nurturing myself throughout all my years of helping others. Then I heard my huge message. I still recall the one day I was standing out among the lava rocks, on our way to Hana in Hawaii, when I heard a very loud voice say, “You are NOT being torn apart, you are being put back right.” I turned around and no one was there! But I knew it was a very special message to me coming from the universe, God, my angels, guides, whatever you wish to call it, but I began to understand so much more from that point on.
The surgery day finally came..I had of course shed a few tears and grieved over what I knew I would be losing. But hey, it’s just a breast right? The surgery was over, they had found some cancer in the sentinel nodes and took three more next to that to be biopsied. The doctor felt assured she got it all. I remember laying in that hospital bed and knew in my heart and soul that I would never be taking chemo or radiation. My journey would be done MY way. I did the consults with the oncologist and radiation doctors. I just couldn’t do it although they tried to instill fear, I did not take that on. My one big disappointment was while at the oncologist office (It was breast cancer awareness month) I was astounded to see so many sugary treats being handed out. I even had a woman try and shove a cookie at me saying, “you know you want this”. What???? They KNOW sugar feeds cancer. How in the hell can they offer such garbage? She was saying how the patients going through chemo need some comfort foods and that they intended to sugar them up and get them out of there. That was the last time I stepped inside any oncologists’ office.
I chose to continue my protocol as outlined for me which included remaining vegan, no sugar, working on my stress level, exercise, hyperthermia, and my absolute belief system that I was cancer free. I occasionally now will try wild caught salmon or halibut, but that is rare. It is now 18 months later and I remain cancer free, all tumor markers are well below normal and I feel healthier now than I have ever been in the past. My outlook on life has also changed.. Although I was mostly a positive person before, now I truly live to be alive. I take those trips I had been putting off, I’m doing those things on my bucket list and always remind myself…Life is for living. I truly did get a second chance and I plan on taking advantage of every moment here on this Earth. I still have some of those fears, but I am working on them and freeing those chains that bound me before. I don’t tell others how to walk their own cancer journeys but if anyone wants to talk to me, I will share my own experience. The one important thing I tell everyone who contacts me is this! “Do your research before making any big decision.” I also remind others, don’t let fear make your decision for you!
Whenever anyone asks me, “do you feel you made the right decision,” I am taken back to that day where I asked myself the same question and shortly after that, a car pulled in front of me while I was driving with a license plate that read….WEBEGLAD! I smile as I recall that. It was my answer, my proof that I truly did follow my own heart. Always, always follow your heart…it will never steer you wrong…
April 18, 2016
May Pam live a LONG, HEALTHY, prosperous, and joyfilled life full of love and gratitude:-)
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