Around 2 am yesterday, my sweet, amazing, and gentle cat Carmine died. I was beside myself with grief. I couldn’t believe he was fine earlier in the day and then, poof, just like that…gone. I was his ‘person’ and we had a daily love fest routine that even my dog Roxy wanted to be a part of.
Carmine was special to me because he was my mom’s cat. One of my mom’s last words was “Carmine.” I assured her I would take care of him and she didn’t need to worry about him. For years prior to her death, my mom would literally play with Carmine for hours and hours every.single.day. He was her constant and loyal companion and literally kept her sane.
LOSING CARMINE SUCKS. It sucks because:
? We had a special bond and he ‘got me’.
? I felt guilty because I promised my mom that I would take care of him. Had I known something was wrong, I would have taken him to the vet.
? A few days ago, I had a dream that he died.
? It’s Valentine’s Day… the day of love. I loved him SO much.
? Carmine was the last living thing connected to my mom (aside from my sister).
THROUGHOUT THE DAY, I FELT GRATEFUL AND REALIZED:
? I DID take care of Carmine. I took GREAT care of him and loved him unconditionally (as our fur babies love us).
? Carmine and my mom are together again… as it should be.
? I needed to release Carmine from an energetic standpoint around the whole ‘caregiving’ part of my life.
? He died peacefully on the floor of my bedroom doorway.
I’LL ALWAYS REMEMBER CARMINE FOR:
? Lying on top of or next to me every night and purring like the sweet boy he was.
? Allowing Roxy to share the bed with him.
? Always reaching out his paw to touch me every morning.
? Being playful.
? Being such a calm and sweet soul.
? Helping me through the darkest time in my life when going through cancer treatment and depression. Carmine was the spark of light on otherwise bad days.
? Running under the bed most times when anyone else tried to love on him. He did warm up to Sarah the most and allowed her to nap with himJ
WHAT I BELIEVE FOR SURE:
On this beautiful day of love, here’s what I know and believe for sure:
? Everything happens FOR us.
? We don’t always need to know ‘why’ something happens.
? When we die, it’s simply our physical shell that disappears. Our soul lives on.
? Just as our late Dane, Colonel, is with my dad and grandpa, Carmine is with my mom and they are both giddy happy together.
?Our furry babies are an integral part of our lives. The pain and grief of losing our beloved animals is SO worth the love, companionship and LIFE they give us.
? We could learn a lot from our pets. If we lived life the way they teach us to live every day, our world would be a better place.
? More than ever, I am opening the door to my intuitive gifts and learning to TRUST the messages I receive. This isn’t the first time my dreams were premonitions.
? Every day is a gift. That’s why it’s called the present. LIVE in the present…in every moment.
I am thankful for the opportunity to be Carmine’s “mom” and will always treasure our time together. On this day of love AND EVERY.SINGLE.DAY, hold your loved ones (human and otherwise) tight and always let them know how much you love them.
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